Thursday, October 16, 2008

In Limbo and in a Funk

Much of my life is in limbo right now. This is not a spot that I am comfortable in, or do well with. The lack of goals and foreward movement is a bad scene for me. When I fel restless like this, I have a tendency to do stupid things. So, I'm trying to be wise and think my way through this, rather than act rashly.

I took a new job in May, understanding that the company was in the process of applying for approval from NYS for my position. That approval process should have been completed by July. But NYS is extremely slow, and at this point, mid way through October, we still do not have approval for Service Coordination. So I am doing other work, but it is not what working with survivors, and I miss doing SC.

The Tri that I planned to do is over. The season is done in upstate NY until next May (at the earliest). So I'm having a hard time being motivated to work out. I'm evaluating what I want to accomplish in the next few months, and will try to figure out how to get there.

I need a new short term fitness goal, but haven't settled on one yet. Do I try to improve my 5K time, or build my base to a 10k? Join a swim class to improve my skills?

The seasons are changing. Although it is beautiful, the days are getting shorter. That means time outside is becoming a precious commodity. That means little time for biking, and soon we'll be stuck inside in the evenings.

Our house needs some work. Nothing big, just little projects that all cost money. The problem is that we can't seem to agree on what the priorities should be. So, nothing is getting done.

Yuck! I hate being in limbo! I like to know where I'm going, and how I'll get there. I just don't have that right now. Okay, I try to be positive most of the time. I'm just not feelin' it today.


PennyCandy said...

I so understand that. Do you want to know what I do when I want a specific project done I make it happen. For example I wanted the carpet out of the frontroom so I gave Andrew the directive to rip it out. I knew once it was gone Paul would agree to put new flooring down. Up until that point he was content to spray it with frabreeze and deal with it. I wasn't so I pushed the issue.

I guess maybe I would go with the swim class because then you do not have to worry about the weather.

Felicia said...

may I suggest....Yoga! Maybe something completely different and something that you think you probably won't like will challenge you!

HeidiTri's said...

Yoga is an interesting idea. It's funny, but last night when I swimming laps, I thought about checking out the yoga schedule...or maybe NIA...or maybe kickboxing!